When I first decided to create KeiannaJohnson.com, one of the things I vowed to myself was that I was going to be 100% honest. No more hiding or burying the truth underneath the ground. Real healing lives inside the truth. The Truth. The roots of the soul live whether right or wrong. The roots of the soul can not grow if dirty lies continue to suffocate its growing process.
Have you ever heard the saying, The energy you put into something is the same energy you get out of it? My first time hearing this statement was back in 2013 during a presentation taught by Dr. Brooke owner of Vegan Restaurant Everlasting Life. He discussed how food is energy and how everything we put into our body affects the mind, the body, the soul and the spirit.
Living a healthy lifestyle is always on the forefront of my mind. I stand faced to faced looking at myself in the mirror and seeing the choices I made concerning my body every day. Not being selective of what I put into my body and the lack of activity is why I have spent years hating myself for allowing myself to become an overweight woman. Years of being angry with myself because I no longer looked the way I did in my youth. But why? Why did I neglect myself?
Going A Little Deeper
One day while writing in my journal, I realized I’ve always failed to care for myself, and not only in health. I would see red flags concerning people and situations around me, and I would turn a blind eye. I would wake up out of my sleep due to restlessness because I didn’t feel right about something I was a part of and yet again, would turn a blind eye. Turning a blind eye has been a pattern of mine for a long time. I never dealt with situations appropriately until it became an atomic bomb. We all know there is no calming the explosion after a nuclear bomb has blown up. The flames sometimes so hot, I would just lay down and allow myself to burn.
Sowing Bad Choices and Reaping Bad Results
The key word in each paragraph is the word ALLOW! I didn’t want to do the work. Not being selective of what I put into my body, not being selective of the kinds of people I had around me, not being strategically careful of where I put my energy, not focusing on truth has nearly cost me my life. Being a coward almost killed my mind, my body, my soul, and spirit. I didn’t want to do the work because I feared people not liking me or being angry with me…..but was willing to hurt myself in progress. Sad. I was prepared to gain the whole world, yet lose my soul.
The first steps in moving forward are to deal with my truths. The fact is I am not a punk. The fact is I am not a coward. I am a strong woman who is capable of becoming everything God said I will be. I will not continue to dumb myself down to fit in with anyone. God has given me a choice to choose to live in the light or to live in darkness. I’ve spent more than half of my life living in darkness willingly choosing what was not best for me. I choose to live in life with God.Whatever I do to improve my mind, my body, my soul, and spirit are going to take work. Consistent work. Working when nobody is looking. Working for good health, not for vanity. Working for LIFE! From here on in, I am looking out for me.